My Personal Psalm

God why do you choose me? God I see why you chose me.
I fall on my face again and again                 I fall and fall
but still you heal my wounds.                     And you wash me clean

I consider myself nothing special,               I have a special gift  

but to you I’m your precious child.            And I use it only for you.

God why do you choose me?   God I see why you chose me.

I sin all the time without realizing,             I have plenty to give

But you are willing to wash it away.            And more.

I wonder in awe of you,                             I love you with all of my heart,

But you wonder in awe of me.                   And you love me too.

God why did you choose me?  God I see why you chose me.

I turn my back on you,                               I falter in sin

But you stand there waiting.                       And I bask in your mercy.

I love you,                                              I’m perfect the way I am

But how can you love me?                         And you made me this way.

God you are my God and I love you for loving me.

Prom?

I don't see the big deal with this whole concept of prom.  Girls spend hundreds of dollars on a dress, freak out about their make up and hair, and have to find the perfect date and group while guys only go for one reason. But for what?  All I'm doing right now is freaking out over a stupid dance and I have no idea why.  I'm probably not going to have a date and the group that I go in is going to be made up of close friends whom I will have a good time with.  As for my dress, I could go in jeans and have a good time. I'm not here to impress anyone, I'm here to have a good time.  So what is the big deal?  I'm done caring about what the world thinks about me and I am more concerned about what God thinks of me.  So what about prom?  If I don't go it will be no big deal.  If I do go, I'll make sure to have fun.  All I'm saying is that I'm done being labeled by this world and it's standards of what I should think is important.  I think prom is no biggie and if I don't go I'll buy a goat and two chicks with the money I could have bought my dress with. 

Am I Looking At The Real You?

People always try to cover up who they really are because they are afraid of being judged. But what if what you are really covering up is your christianity or you are covering up the sinful you at church?  God called us all to do the right thing and to go forth and spread christianity among the world but our worry of being judged continues to stop us day in and out.  I'm here to tell you that worry is the main thing stopping you from doing your job.  Worry can turn even the strongest of christians into putty.  But God calls us to take a look at ourselves and ask, "Am I being the christian i need to be?"
 God calls us to go forth and be fishers of men.  Yet how can we be fishers of men if we can't even share our christianity with the world?  God says that all christians are like salt. Matthew 5:13 says, "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men." So why is it that we continue to lose our flavor? Why do we continue not to care?  There are people out in the world who are yearning for something better in life but we sit by afraid of being judged and lose our saltiness while people of the earth are being lost in their sin.  Why hurt those we love the most by leaving them in their sin?
I realize that the church can also be the one who does the judging.  I have been a part of that experience once i became a part of the youth group.  I was tormented and excluded from the group of girls at our church. The church was not my safe haven from the world and I sinned immensely trying to find comfort.  I realize now that Satan was trying to isolate me to get me to sin.  But church does not have to be like that. Even if you do not fit in with the people of your generation, there will always be others who will accept and appreciate you for who you truly are.  Sinning is not a way to create happiness in your life.
What I'm trying to say is that whether your a real christian or not, you shouldn't worry about what people think.  I realize this is easier said than done but one little step can make a huge difference.